Some time ago, I thought I was a completely fearless girl, that could go into anything without hesitation; that could skip almost every task without the uneasiness of being afraid... But, oh, I was so wrong...
This semester, my friends have been too keen on making me realize what I am really afraid of; and it's something only people that love unconditionally can be afraid of: I am terrified of losing those I love.
Yup, my friends have been scarring me all the way to hell and back. I'm not afraid of death, nor afraid of dying, I AM afraid of seeing how my friends and family lose their will to live; of listening to their voices saying that they surrender, that they give up their lives. Because dying of something unexpected or expected but not always given a lot of importance is quite different from dying because you want to, or rather because you don't want to live any more... There is a little but substantial difference between them
Loneliness... I've been never afraid of it, because being with myself is enough for me when nobody else is around. I'll never be lonely because I'll always be with myself.
What happens when a warrior decides to stop fighting for what he believes, loves and wants?
This semester, my friends have been too keen on making me realize what I am really afraid of; and it's something only people that love unconditionally can be afraid of: I am terrified of losing those I love.
Yup, my friends have been scarring me all the way to hell and back. I'm not afraid of death, nor afraid of dying, I AM afraid of seeing how my friends and family lose their will to live; of listening to their voices saying that they surrender, that they give up their lives. Because dying of something unexpected or expected but not always given a lot of importance is quite different from dying because you want to, or rather because you don't want to live any more... There is a little but substantial difference between them
Loneliness... I've been never afraid of it, because being with myself is enough for me when nobody else is around. I'll never be lonely because I'll always be with myself.
What happens when a warrior decides to stop fighting for what he believes, loves and wants?
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